Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Natalie Portman: "I thought I was going to Die"

This story just keeps on getting more and more intense. Yes, we already knew that the stunning Star Wars actress had to drop down to a very unhealthy weight for her role as a ballerina in Black Swan. While being ballerina thin is the norm for some, Natalie differs in that she is publicly speaking out about the overall experience of going down to such a low weight - weight that she barely had on her body to lose in the first place! Natalie is candidly speaking about the struggles, challenges and dangers she faced while living with anorexia, which is really inspirational and a wonderful cautionary message to women everywhere to take note of...especially when the topic of death is involved!

“There were some nights that I thought I literally was going to die. It was the first time I understood how you could get so wrapped up in a role that it could sort of take you down," said the star in a recent interview. In order to achieve the look and technique of a ballerina who had been training for many years, Portman trained for 16 hours a day and barely ate. Real ballerinas often skip breakfast, have a small salad for lunch, a few nuts here and there and fruit for dinner. That can't be more than 300-500 calories a day. Subtract the calories burned from dancing all day and you've got anorexia! In addition, many ballerinas smoke, drink tons of coffee and do yoga to calm their minds. How can a person live like that? Compared to real dancers, Portman had to expedite the process for filming, which took a toll not only on her body but also on her mind. Her role consumed her life. Even though she achieved a body that a lot of young girls and some women would die for - Portman didn't want it because it was literally killing her.

Now that filming has wrapped, Portman has bounced back to a healthy weight - and then some. The petite star is now a mommy-to-be! Promising to never put her body through such torture again, at least she can say that the hard work more than paid off - Natalie has been nominated for a Golden Globe award, a SAG award and there is a ton of Oscar buzz surrounding Black Swan.